February 2012
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Sinking with closed eyes
picturing the glossy paper
outlining with intent to mimic
selling the perfect
narrowing body image
portraying those who would sacrifice
greening plastic
sneaking ambient drops
liquefying friendships
for a breath
January 2012
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unfinished thought...too tired
I forgot how to speak
somewhere in between
being afraid
and never being able to spell
so I learned to talk
myself out and into things
learning to stick up
without being stuck up
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I feel like this whole SOPA and PCIP bullshit was just Lamar S. Smith trying to propose something utterly ridiculous to make Obama look bad because he know’s Americans are dumb enough to blame congresses bills on the president or every problem with government. Hrmm.. and in an election year.. and he happens to be a republican.. seems odd. Prove me wrong. I mean he would be only tricking...
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They say the great die young.. but the only reason we recognize them at all or that they were great was because they died and it triggered some emotional response either possessively that you want them in your life or it reminded you of your own eventual demise. To which we seek an answer to questions that are scientifically impossible to answer (when and why and what will happen?). Those who...
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The warmth
no need for a blanket
the agonizing perspiration
from trying too persistently
to get your attention
when my cheeks turned red
not from embarassment
but from the lack of heat
your arm intuitively
spoke
answering my next question
but you had to leave
perhaps you gained forsight
that I wouldn’t need your cover
till next winter
or undoubtably
you brought the cold to...
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Hell is a paradox
if evil loves evil
why does he torture them
in a fiery solitude
when behavior is relinquished
through punishment
and learned through rewards
but his image would not stand
and the devil would dissipate in intentions
so hell is over populated
with those who never change
from their mistakes and bad habits
a masochistic desire
chaining themselves
willing
to the...
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A wave that starts from head to toe
like
static
that just won’t let go
of its currency
that both of us produce
can you feel the
time difference
as we reverse
shadows of our recollection
of those who deserve affection
or a true outline
of experience
no need to convince
taken off
swallowed by
time constraints
and an unsettled stomach
December 2011
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I could have wrote something poetic, but I just couldn’t think straight. All the lines were there but unorganized to the point where I couldn’t even process what I was trying to portray. It might of had to do with describing those pretty hazel eyes but that was always his line, not mine. Could of had to do with the man I met but never knew. The fact that he never got to see the end of...
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Gone
I don’t know you
Well I didn’t
but I feel like I did
through their eyes
I could gain prespective
feel how you made them feel
Gone
I didn’t know you
but I could make a judgment
based off of what they told me
it wouldn’t be accurate
because I don’t know you
Gone
Sad because I never will know you
Never understand why they feel that way
Never...
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I know I shouldn’t write for recognition, but sometimes it’s frustrating when it goes unnoticed. It’s like talking to yourself or getting interrupted when you are venting. I write for myself, that’s audience I want to impress, but it would be nice if others could appreciate it too. I feel like writing is a dead art. No one wants to read anymore even if it meant...
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There’s only so much
one can see through the window
as it steams up
and the light tries to transcend
through the moisture
rippling through the frame
outlining the smoke
that was seemingly invisible before
There’s only so much
one can know
when all you’ve experienced
was in the shade behind that window
where there is no breeze
only a perfect set temperature
while...
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mine- inspired by the walking dead
My feet are dirty
been running away
problems that gain momentum
a herd of them
that begin to gather mindlessly
from a sound they might have imagined
I’m warning
they do bite
all sources are disconnected
like I’m disconnected from humanity
the new generation will lack a superego
while the rest
degenerate
and soon we aren’t so different
from the dead skin
testing...
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What were you doing?
Around the time
you can feel the heat
escape from the not so green
scene
around the time
you know it’s about to get dark
a reminder you might have wasted
a pay
day
Well I was thinking
about the time
wondering if you know me
like I’ve wanted you to
or is it already too late
of a date?
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to be continued.
not controlled
by anyone stronger than us
mentally or physically
not manipulated
by money
we either win or work for
Instead we are all confined
by ourselves
our thoughts
that don’t mind their own
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If my town
could handle the attention
we’d all be meant for Hollywood
if they could not blow
it out of proportion
not get upset
and learn to take a joke
I’d say run the cameras
I know California is far away
but I’d transport all the produced
laughter
I mean the streets are already
seemingly perfect
lined with the same damn palm trees
not to mention
the sky is...
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So alone
all of us
we can’t even fall asleep on cue
each body
timed different
unless by force
to wake up
to feel
hungry
sad
happy
tired
in a perfect world
we’d all have counterparts
programmed
to our biological clock
timed to fit every need
hindsight
to when you wanted affection
disliked the channel
or were scared
Those in this reality
who suffer
and cannot...
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Tear
and tear
one and the same
as the saline water
drips
it tears
apart
from your eyes
violently green
as if to distract
from the red
and all that is wet
it tears
my ego
away from my mind
aggravated stomach
from the loss of pink tissue
to the black of the smoke
shrinking I cannot afford
yet continue
my motivation
limited
because I spend
it all on you
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All it was
was anonomyous
a test run
to provide insight
to the minds
searching for a quick laugh
to recognize
and redefine
the human mind
diving deeper
into logic
that isn’t humorous
at someone else’s
expense
to enlighten
those with their brain
blindfolded
and their eyes
thinking for them
All that are well known
infinitely
were entertainment
not beauty
nor...
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In these walls
they are crawling
the secrets
she told you
the ones I kept
and some you never tried to
and i cannot afford
to be proven guilty
so i’ll remain far
from the wood beams
insufficient insulation
and cold dry wall
illuminating
loneliness
that I won’t blame myself for
intentions were pure
heart to heart
however I will be reminded
that I was the butterfly
...
November 2011
13 posts
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Pixelated vison
from two green eyes
who’s nerves
were the last
stricken with envy
in the present
unrecognizable methaphor
for the future
and they say it’s impossible
to read it
even though we all repeat it
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This individuals intelect
is higher than my self respect
disinterest in his own needs
the crowd shamelessly feeds
off his instinctive antic
sparking a laugh despite being frantic
from personal details allowed to be overcast
the melancholy expression gas masked
suffocated by the company bought
out of the loneliness he sought
some skin willing to stay behind
because he was too proud to...
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I think I’ll just fall asleep
to the the sound
of the drips
dropping
languidly
and thick
onto the cotton
smudging my face
because of the limitation
stressing the nonrenewable
resource of time
judging by the reaction
show no sign
of recollection
that reveals
disinterest
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Too tired to finish this... (thought in progress)
I sleep better
Without lying next to dead skin
torn between an obligation
to myself
and controlling every motion
but my whole day is set off
moving through a detour
when I wake up alone
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And yeah I know what you’d say
because everyone’s already told me
Just brush my smile off
towards someone else
instead
instead of giving one back
and how can I be looking forward
to moving forward
when this second
I need to fix
the disapointment
dancing around my intent
when your intentions aren’t clear
cover my face and laugh it off
with the shifting fake smile
...
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I just feel like I wanna be trapped in
by the four walls that disapeer into the clouds
and the foot steps are faster than the engines
also stuck in gray desert
Where the background noise
of the horns that scream “that was worth the fine”
is louder than any thoughts
to the point of influencing your day dreams
of not being anonymous
with your eyes red
and dizzy
because your...
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True love is the staple to a fairy tale’s “happily ever after” moral. It’s like our neurons are wired to find it. As if when you find it, it will be your antidepressant medication that serves as a serotonin agonist. Programmed to automatically block the re-uptake of this neurotransmitter. However, that’s just it. True love is the fairy tale in itself. I’m not...
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Want
These
or these
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Finally I have things figured out.
Landed a research assistant position!
Changed my major to political science - pre law.
Only one more credit till I have a minor in psychology!
Still on the track to losing weight so far almost 50 lbs.
Have straight A’s.
After 3 years of college and now I finally get the feeling I’ve learned something. I’ve become stronger and the feeling...
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All life’s important questions can be answered with education.
Social sciences answers why?
Hard Sciences answer how?
Physical sciences answer who?
Mathematics answers what?
History answers when?
and Geography answers where?
While language arts allows you to communicate all life’s answers to everyone who needs help answering these questions.
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all connected
perhaps confined
by invisible strings
created strong
and through
acceptance
of traits
morals
and views
You’ll try
to cut them
unintelligibly
but they were made
precisely in spite of you
all the negative words
typed shamefully behind
a hard drive and some wires
blind you from realizing
how the pathetic only hide
because they are embarrassed of themselves
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the creases
in your face
from the corners
inching towards a smile
were like cracks
in the seams
of every lie
I tried to say
to hide what I felt
and every planned out expression
memorized like lines
dramatized
so the plot would be obvious
keep dreaming
of a close body
unmistakabley yours
however through
my dreaming eyes
the blur floods in
at every chance to
recognize your...
October 2011
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Confused
am I happier
with this new found
self eesteem
gained through compliments
and looks of desire
or
now do I have more work
sorting through all the
bad intentions
and lusting vibes
struggling to not require
the attention
to progress
into who I’ve always wanted to be
to others
The kind words feeling
not so great
when you are determined
to hear between
each phrase
...
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inseparable
yet opposites
I wish he shared
with you
the same smile
and intellect
able to transalate
a facial expression
with words
confessing
a desire
and blunt emotion
avoiding the obstacle
of stuttering my disclosure
and eliminating false acquisitions
understanding I speak with silence
But then I guess
I’m just denying
you
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Don’t complain to me and then not let me fix the problem.
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Just can’t dissipate
during this broken state
the wrong key
you’ve gone and change yourself and me
clear cut smile was wiped off
as you bluntly scoffed
though our loneliness was profound
my intentions bound
spoiled with your typical effervescence
hurt at its lack of presence
and I apologized too frequent
because no other phrase was fluent
Needed that last sip
in...
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Found this pretty funny- someone obviously did... →
September 2011
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You’re hard
your intonation
and the way you argue futilely
gives it all away
with each laugh
you shrink
and realize
you’re not getting off
because the tears
no longer exist
in my eyes
for you
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I just want to sit on some grass in a foreign country looking at a historical landmark and imagine I existed then. Maybe I would return and feel like I existed in the present sitting on the grass at my university.
August 2011
18 posts
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arms folded
unattractive
knowing
it could be worse
I have nothing
but what I want
is also useless
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Eyes find an escape
From the book’s intent: degree
To the brown bottle.
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It was a wink
with both eyes
at the same time
because we communicate
not with words
or subconscious
body language
translated
different ways
but with chemicals
innate
to all the living
unavoidable
and destructive
to self-esteem
of those denied
because the signal
was cut short
blaming their personality
but it’s simply
invisible
and perceivably odorless
chemicals
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Vote for my haiku, please! Quite broke. →
Communicating with chemicals
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Here it goes
my conscious again
Dragging hands down
collar bones
can’t stop
Already thinking about you
True till the last time
You kissed my mind
I guess we both find it hard to change
endless routines
Do you feel the way they did
Finding ways out of every glance
But you look very nice
Trying to refrain from saying your name
And falling, falling down
So slowly
Tipped toe
...